pieces of life....

can't be trusted

2012-01-31T18:51:00.004+08:00

thoughts

feelings

sometimes

too

overwhelming.

how to handle?

trying hard

not to allow them

to control me.

feelings

can't be trusted

one can feel this way now

but after a minute

it changes.

confused,

i need some peace,

only He can provide perfect peace.

productivity

2011-09-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

Have not been writing for quite some time already. writing skills turning rusty?

well, it has been a long week. only managed to sleep for a few hours last night. is this how a designer work? i remember my dad used/ still tells me, many a times, staring at the computer screen, touching up our work will never end. it is productivity. whether you are productive in doing your work and producing a certain quality of it in a given time. perhaps i didn't put it in the actual way my dad said it but how true. sometimes, i really need to be productive instead of letting FB/Twitter/ other stuff distract me. i admit that it is sometimes hard not to give in to these distraction especially when it is only a click away. "For a while only la". "won't take up much time la". but what if we add up these little minutes and seconds that we spend peeping into social medias? we can easily say that we spend almost 1-2 hours a day just on them. sometimes, it catch me thinking, what if the bible is one click away. will i click on it? will i be excited to click to see what God wants to say to me? will i? if these peeping into social medias can be replaced with peeping to read God's Word, we can easily say that we have spent almost 1-2 hours a day on the Bible.

just a thought though..

well i was actually intending to write about something else, perhaps i will leave that for another day?

ciaozz..

wrong forecast

2011-06-09T11:17:00.003+08:00

here i am... it's been long since i wrote here... I was forecasting a busy week until friday not until my lecturer extended one of my poster design submission to monday. So i will only need to submit one poster design on friday(currently doing 2 poster design for a competition for my assignment).

well, it's june already! JUNE! can you believe it?? month by month, day by day, they past FAST! just 6 more months and this year will be over.

No perfect one

2011-05-15T22:54:00.002+08:00

Have been having two modules for year 2, sem 2.1 block 1. studio lighting and Italian languages and culture.

I enjoy Italian quite a lot. haha.. i cant believe it cause i was not looking forward to any Italian classes at first. As for studio lighting, i enjoy it too but it has become tiresome. really.. really tiresome.. Somehow i know roughly the reason of the "tiresome-ness" but i don't wanna push the blame to anybody la..

See, it's like that. For studio lighting, we work in groups of 3. And i tell you:P my patience has never never ever been stretched so far before.. everyday after shooting, i get really tired, weary(ya, you can say that i didn't rely on His strength) and sometimes even frustrated. I find myself having really deep naps after school which i don't really have previously. Thank God that those naps really helped me mentally la.

Sigh. it's never easy working with people.

Despite all that is happening, i thank God for my group la. I believe that He has put me in this group for reasons. One thing i learned was no groups are perfect. they might look nice externally but you don't know what they are facing until you're in that certain group. Sometimes, i just have to let go into His hands and not taking control of what is beyond my control.

One more week. i wanna do it with Your strength. May your Name be glorified!

impossible - im = possible

2011-05-01T19:17:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, it takes just a little more faith to see God's hands move in a problem. When we say:" Lord, i've had enough. I'm really tired about this problem already." When our tiredness leads us into total dependence on Him, this is when we will see a little hope and a little intervention that God has done. It just takes a little more faith sometimes to see Him making the impossible POSSIBLE instead of controlling and solving our own problems and ending up not seeing what God can do for us. God doesn't like us controlling our problems and wanting things to be solved in our own way. It's when we stop controlling our problems, placing them into God's hands, that is when we will see God's hands moving.

What Lord, are you teaching me this week? Have i place my total dependence on Him? Am i still holding on to things that i need to let go into His care?

learning from the King through a king

2011-04-25T22:22:00.004+08:00

"O our God, will You not exercise judgment upon them? For we have no

might to stand against this great company that is coming against us.

We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon You."

2 Chronicles 20:12

When King Jehoshaphat saw the battles that was ahead of him, he went straight to seek God. He even called for the whole nation to fast and seek God. it's so encouraging rite? how wonderful it would be if "one day" the PM calls the whole nation to fast and pray for the country? how wonderful....

Though Jehoshaphat was a king, i'm truly amazed by his humble submission to God. though he was king, an earthy one, he recognised that there's a greater King above him that can solve his problem. He did not take the problem into his own hands. instead, what he did was he told God what he felt(2 chor 20:12).

Many a times, we take our problems into our own control. At least for me, i think i did it many times without realising until a certain problem drives me crazy and wears me out. Jehoshaphat's attitude towards handling his problem is something i think i need to learn from. i/we need to realise that "apart from Jesus we can do NOTHING"(John 15:5). i think it is when we truly let this verse sink deep down into our hearts that we'll truly understand that we can do nothing without him even if we did, i think we did it for the wrong purpose.

food for thought:)

one's eye

2011-04-20T22:21:00.005+08:00

here are some photos that i've edited that i would like to share… enjoy viewing them:)…

i have come to realize that the colour temperature of a photo can actually bring different emotions. i tried playing around with the modes of the same photos and i've come to realize that it's actually quite interesting to see how these changes happen.

but to say honestly, i still prefer original photos. i don't like photos to be edited unless it's done in the camera(that means you change and set the mode you want and then take spontaneously). i find that it's a little cheating once the photos are edited. i remember when i was having my photography modules, my lecturer did not allow any editing and cropping of photos. though at first i was shocked and scared but come to think of it again i think what he said was true. because, once any editing is done to the photo it is somehow not original anymore:)… Still, though i've said that, i still appreciated those who can capture good moments of life.

The best camera in the world is one's eyes. The most beautiful photos are memories.

bila?

2011-04-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder when will i see it and never feel anything again?

*suffocating*

ended year one

2011-03-21T17:25:00.003+08:00

HERE AM I. HERE I AM.

Tomorrow will be the last day of school.

Last day of the second semester.

Last day of my first year as a Diploma student.

Sitting back.

Turning my head back towards the road I have travelled.

One year, passed FAST.

ONE YEAR ENDED. ENDED YEAR ONE.

HOLIDAYS STARTS.

Not 7 BUT 77

2011-03-03T21:49:00.003+08:00

It is totally hard to forgive someone...

who has done to you so much wrong....

someone whom you know their motives behind every question they ask and every action they do...

sometimes,

just don't feel like answering them...

because you know that your answers will only benefit them and cause you more frustrations.

it is totally hard to forgive someone...

whom is still able to laugh at you when you're the victim of their actions...

it is even harder to forgive someone..

when all others gossip about them.. but you choose not to take it their gossips.. sometimes don't even choose to listen what they gossip.. but yet those gossips keep floating in your mind causing hurt and unforgiveness to grow deeper.

Forgiving others is not easy... it is a humble act of worship... denying our prideful self and allowing God to restore relationships.

One once said, forgiveness is a commitment... and One even greater said,

"Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

Romans 12:17-21

He even said,

"Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?

Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."

Matthew 18:21-22

reflection

2011-02-26T11:11:00.002+08:00

wow…. looking back and reflecting on my week….. i really don't know what word to conclude it…

it was… hectic, no peace in mind, intensive, tedious… a "slightly" busy week….

before the week started, i really didn't know whether i could even make it till friday… call me having so little faith… *but Jesus said if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to the mulberry tree "be uprooted and planted in the sea", and it will obey you, right?* :P just joking…

yah, coming back to what i was mentioning, i really doubted whether i could make it… maybe, i wont be able to finish those assignments, maybe my lecturer won't approve my idea, maybe i won't have enough time for everything to be done… there were so many things going on in my head… doubts + stress… i remember, at an instance, i just broke down… i couldn't take it anymore…. all i wanted was to do it with His strength…. that He will truly sustain me through out the week… i thank God for people who comforted me and prayed for me…. it was really encouraging:)

i think through out the week.. God really did something unexpected… my lecturer extended the submission deadline for an assignment… though might seem that… aiyah, that's nothing la…. but i think that's the one thing that i was really grateful for….

and guess what? i really made it….!!! i still can't believe it… Praise God!

i've learnt, if you wanna help others, if you are really sincere in helping and meeting the needs of others when all others are busy… if you choose to pause from your work and help others who are in trouble, there's a sacrifice to make…. not a sacrifice that can be redeemed, but a sacrifice of a "large" amount of time… time was crucial, and it would mean whether you pass of fail you assignments…. that's a big sacrifice… it all goes back to a simple thing.. whether you're self-centered or others-centered.

太多不好太少也不好

2011-01-22T00:22:00.003+08:00

有时候真的觉得自己想太多，

回头一看。。。

只想笑自己为什么想那么多。

哈哈。。何佳敏。。

为什么这样傻？天真？

可是有时候是因为想多了才会谨慎一点

避免不必要的误会。。。

所以有时候想是能想，

可是！

太多不好太少也不好。。

社会

2011-01-03T18:04:00.003+08:00

lately, I've come to really realise that the world is actually so 现实. not that i've not realise it previously but sometimes we need to experience it ourselves in order to understand the meaning of it. it's really a "sigh sigh sigh" every time i think of this. it's saddening how many people are forced to live according to the 现实ness.

it's sad how the world judge things. "you must be the top.... to get this". "you must be... in order to achieve this". "you must learn... to be famous". "if you don't.... you won't be accepted"... AH! the world at first simple and sweet like those of Adam's and Ave has become so complicated and corrupted. the world has change. changed! read through the first chapter of Genesis and you'll realise a huge difference.

i dont know whether others in other industries are affected. maybe it's more prominent in the so called design world. here(at least for now-the module that i'm doing where one of my assignment is where i need to go for an interview as if i'm applying for a job). well, i know this assignment would train my communication skills as a designer but it's also all about how well you promote yourself. how well you promote your portfolio and to sum it all up it depends on "the boss" whether he likes you, whether he thinks you're worth it to be employed. everything is so subjective. *actually, i think it's more complicated than this*

haih.....

*oh Lord, help me.

2011-01-03T10:36:00.003+08:00

oh... and classes starts again today... haih....

*i miss home

People don't understand people

2010-11-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

I don't understand people..

lately, i've come across a few people. not really come across. hmm.. i come across people and meet people everyday. okay, basically just a few people that "caught my attention" and cause me to think and reflect...

first, is people whom i come across which are slightly not so helpful.. i'm not here to judge them la... ok? just here to share my opinions.. Lately, i've been struggling a bit with my photog assignment. photog was not as easy as i thought it was.. maybe because last time(before this module) i took photog as my hobby instead of looking at it as a homework!.. oh well, it's gonna end anyway.. haha... anyway, through this journey of "producing" photos i just came across people who were slightly not that helpful... i dont knw... mayb they have their own 苦中 and reason for not helping "me" bah.. but sometimes i find it unreasonable when my only request is to take only part of their legs or hands.. is it so hard? is it really so "embarrassing" to have your pics in my assignment? not even your face leh.. just your hands or legs..:)

second, i came across people who were totally opposite as the above.. hehe.. sometimes i just feel so grateful to have friends like them..(not that i'm not grateful for unhelpful friends.. i still believe that God place them in our lives for a reason to teach us)(:.. friends that are willing to sacrifice their time, money and energy despite whether they are free or busy.. sometimes, just feel so "paiseh" to ask them for more help.. knowing that they have helped "me" so much...

well, all i can say is.. it's not easy to understand why people react in different ways sometimes.. but, what i've learned through all this is to always look out for the interest of others- to regard others more important than myself. it's something easier said than done..

(;

Four months old

2010-08-08T22:47:00.002+08:00

it's four months already...

four months studying in singapore

four months of examless studies

four months of being more independent

four months of "taking care of myself"

four months of "taking responsible of everything i have"

four months without parents during weekdays

four months of "spending money wisely"

four months of changes

four months of "trying" to adapt to the culture HERE!:s

four months of still keeping that faith growing

(not that i wanna give up)

four months of struggles

four months of living with different people

four months accepting different personalities

four months of a little more freedom without parents(haha)

four months of learning

four months of different educational system

four months of meeting with different people

four months of searching for a church

four months of good and bad exposure

four months of different challenges

four months of facing the lap top more

four months of maintaining old relationships in the same time building new ones

four months...

four months..

not easy.. AT ALL...

lion's den?

2010-08-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

don't know why but every time when i am going back to Spore, i'll always think that i'm going back to the lions den. hahah...

is it really a lion's den?

a thought

2010-06-28T20:07:00.005+08:00

Do we really mean what we say every time we say I MISS YOU!!! I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU???

*as for now, i really really really miss "d kluang" people...

taking comfort

2010-06-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today while I was travelling back to Spore, I met Aiting at the train station.It was great or at least better to have a company to go back with me if not I'll be alone going back to Spore. That feeling of 'left outness' is not nice at all(if you know what I mean... What more I went back for a week already. Getting so comfortale in my comfort zone and now I've to return back to the new environment again). At least if I'm with a friend, i can "take comfort" that another person is also in the same boat as me.

But something just caught me thinking. Why did I 'take comfort' in a human being/ friend rather than taking comfort in God-Jesus-my Comforter? Why? It's not wrong to take comfort in someone who's in the same boat as me but.... Didn't I want to 'take comfort' in Jesus whom I know is and will be with me wherever I go? I don't need to feel left out of even feel lonely.... Or.... Whatever negative feelings.... This thing caught me thinking. Don't you think that it'll be a much greater comfort to know that God who is greater than anything else is before you/beside you and every where? This caught me thinking... This caught me thinking.... Why place my security in human beings?

the DooR

2010-04-17T13:04:00.002+08:00

i stand by the door,
i neither go too far in, nor stay too far out,
the door is the most important door in the world--
it is the door through which men walk when they
find God.
there's no use by going way inside, and staying there,
when so many are sill outside and they, as much as i,
crave to know where the door is.
... the most tremendous thing in the world
is for men to find that door-- the door to God.
the most important thing any man can do
is to take hold of one of those blind, groping hands.
and put it on the latch--the latch that only clicks
and opens to man's own touch.
... so i stand by the door and wait.
for those who see it.
"i'd rather be a door-keeper" so i stand by the door.

to much to digest..

2010-04-08T10:56:00.001+08:00

HEY! you might be wondering why am i here... still blogging, still at home and not in NS.. hehe... yah, true enough.. i'm still at home and i'm not sure when am i going back to my "2nd mission trip".

a lot has happened and is still happening in my life.... NS, decisions to make, things to consider and much much more... it's not easy at all... but i believe God will lead and guide if i look to Him:)..

anyways.. rewinding back.. i was in NS for 5 days.. it was a very different 5 days of my life.. the journey to tasik chini took about 4 hours ++... the journey was not that enjoying for me... smses kept coming in.. calls from people and loved ones... my words were "shaking" everytime when someone called... sometimes cant even control my tears...:P I MISS HOME.. it's hard and not pleasant at all when you're force to do something you dont like... but... it's about perspective... how i look at it....

the first two days of camp was mainly adapting to the campsite.. didnt have much activities but was tiring... not until the third day when we had to get up at 5 something and get ready at the padang kawat before 630am. but thank God that it was 630am in the morning if not if it's 12 noon i think we'll all melt. hehe...

ya, i made new friends.. friends that i think God had planned for me to meet up with because i think they were friends that were easy to get along with. *photos are om fb* the bunch of friends that i got to know eventually became my good friends there...

to sum it all up, i didnt regret experiencing my life in NS for 5 days... though it was a long five days for me, i believe it was a priviledge for me to be there. not everybody gets selected for NS. for me, NS is and was a very good opportunity to reach out... my camp only had 4 christians(1 wira and 3 wirawatis). out of the four including me, i knew one of them which is catherine. anyway, i pray and hope that they'll enjoy their stay in tasik chini and they'll come out as a stronger person:)...

to be honest, i actually came out of NS more stress than when i was in NS.. weird? hehe.. now i have decisions to make.. not those minor decisions but MAJOR ones which with change my life(maybe forever).i'm still on my way to decide between poly and f6...

lately.. i can say that.... it's really a lot to digest... and i hope my body can take it...

:) setadpu

2010-03-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

it's been like a month or so since my last update...
a lots has happened..

i just came back from a class trip with my friends last week at Genting.
it was a really refreshing trip(maybe because the air there was much cooling and fresher:p).. catching up with friends...
basically.. i had lots of fun with them...
though only 17 of us made it.... numbers didn't matter...
i think it was a really good time spent together before we go our separate ways in future..
what i observed and realised through this whole trip was...
people change..
whether for the better or for the bad..
it's sad to see people(not pointing to a specific group of people) change for the bad...
how circumstances and time have changed their lives...
i think everyone of us will change especially during this period of time in life..:)
i just have to get use to it.... in the same time not change for the bad..

secondly was taking my SPM results... argh... i broke down a few minutes before i took my result slip.. i just couldn't tahan anymore... everybody was so kan chiong.... and it made me even more kan chiong...though i was telling my friends to calm down and all, inside me i was just like them.. i had HIGH expectation(for certain subjects). i was worried(i confess). but it was worth it letting out and it was tears of jOy after getting my results:). hehe...

NS is coming soon.... VERY SOON!! haih... so reluctant to leave home and my comfort zone.. but i thank Gos that i'm in the same camp as ahru:)... at least there's still someone from kluang that i can be with. so that i wont feel like a girl being thrown in the middle of an "island". anyway, talking and complaining so much no use de lah.. i still have to go.... haih...

that's all for now:)

january...

2010-02-05T09:07:00.002+08:00

Hello! I’m back!:)
one month is gone again…
was it fruitful? Yes! I would say it was…
last month was a very different month for me..
I experienced a lot..
I was exposed to a lot of things..
I met with different people.. people with special needs… people whom I didn’t ever think would exist?
I didn’t leave home for such a long time before…
:)

Basically, I was sent to Bethany Home in Teluk Intan. It’s a home(school) for physically challenged kids. example: kids that are suffering from down’s syndrome, ADHD, slow learners, those mentally retarded and much more.. I didn’t go alone but was accompanied by Christina and Jasmine.:)

We started of our days with a 20 minutes morning devotion with the teachers at the Home. The morning devotions there were always very refreshing- a very appropriate way to start of the day. The first day itself I was reminded to always give my best in everything I do even till the very last minute. later after devotion, the kids will normally go for their morning walks and then exercise.

First time seeing and getting “in contact” with special kids was kind of scary cause my first impression of them was that they were “scary” people, they pull your hair and they shout out of a sudden. I was quite scared of them the first day I saw them but a teacher there explained to us some things about the kids that really comforted me.

I was asked to help out in a class the first day itself. After getting along with those kids for quite some time, my “fear level of them” decreased. They were not that scary as I thought they were at first. My perspective towards them changed. Hehe.. some were quite friendly.. they like to shake hands with you when they see you in the morning. Some will great you and even smile at you:). The little little things they do really encouraged me.

Basically, teaching the kids was the main thing we did there everyday except for weekends. Weekends there was a little boring. They don’t have sports, prayer meetings and yf there for us. We had the opportunity to join their CGs on Friday nights. I was and am very encouraged by the Christians there especially those who are in the Bethany ministry. Really encouraged to see how strong in faith they are. Their hunger and love for God is what I really need to learn from.We had Saturdays all for ourselves. As for Sundays, we joined two churches and help out at the worship service.

Looking and reflecting back.. there are some things I learned and was reminded of. The first thing I learned is that.. the kids in the Home are fearfully and wonderfully mad by God. They were made in His perfect image. It was not by mistake that God made them. It was not by accident. When God made them He said they were beautiful humans:). In God’s sight, their lives really matter to Him just like how our lives matter to His. I couldn’t believe at first when Psalm 139 stuck me just like that. Many a times, we “normal human” complain that we need to be taller, slimmer, cleverer, prettier.. etc.. etc.. but looking at these kids here.. what do they ask for? They hardly complain.. some cant even express themselves- all that comes out from their month are only words with “um..” “aa”. Pondering back, I really don’t deserve everything I have now. God could have just made the choice to make me into like one of those children. But He didn’t.. what more can I complain to Him about this and that in life?

I really salute the teachers in Bethany. spending and observing how they teach the kids for about 15 days really taught me a big lesson. The teachers have such GREAT patience and love for the kids. I can see that the teachers there have the heart for these kids. they don’t look down, abuse or even give up on the kids. they even laugh and have fun with them. Though some can be quite naughty and stubborn, I can see that the teacher and disciplining them with love in their heart:). I believe these teachers are really God’s blessing in the Home.

Going so far away from home for 15 days was really my first time. I missed home cooked food. I miss mummy’s, daddy’s and didi’s presence. I miss the yfers. I started to appreciated the little little things I always took for granted. Going so far took me out from my comfort zone. Attending a Methodist church was different. The way they conduct their worship service was different. Everything was different and new. I was not used to it at first. I stared to appreciate people here who have helped me in my spiritual life. It reminded me how important it is to be spiritually grounded in faith in a young age.

Another thing I learned there was I was there to serve and not.. to be served. It’s easy to think that when we’re at a “new” place, so we need others to serve us food, we need others to give us attention instead of we taking the initiative to ask and to serve others.

Phew.. I miss that place, the time I spent there with the kids. as I was on my journey back to kluang, I was kind of “bu she de” but in the same time I wanted to go back home cause I miss home. So.. I “posted” a question to God, I told Him: (I couldn’t express myself) how how?? What is this now? Is it going to end just like that? What about the kids there? How can I “contribute”(so called la) to them? The answer I got was: if you LOVE them, you can pray for them.” Whao! That comforted me so much la..!

To sum it all.. I enjoyed my journey this whole month. I really thank God for giving me this opportunity to join YMI 2010… I believe it was God’s plan.. cause I would have just ended up at some NS camp since I was selected. I’m truly thankful that God answered my prayer:). If I didn’t join YMI.. then.. I wouldn’t have met sweet people like Tirzah:P.. blur friend like choon khai.. batman jun hao.. jasmine tai tai.. wakaka Christina..quiet people like yi chiun and xin pei.. and most importantly the things that God wanted me to learn this one whole month… I was worried at first how things would work out this year… I thank God for seeing me through part of it.

year end happenings

2009-12-31T11:35:00.001+08:00

SPM
Looking back.. I still cant believe how I actually got through those four weeks of exams… phew… four weeks is not like four days but 28 days lieh… God was really great and faithful during my exam.. I believe He’s the One that sustained me.. carried me.. and rescued me through those days…. He brought me through the dreadful and wearisome time… He brought me through the high and low tides… especially during my bm and bk paper… I just felt so nervous.. bm maybe it’s because it was the first paper… couldn’t concentrate for the first 15 to 20 minutes.. ugh… but after that… I could concentrate like as if I was doing my normal exam paper:). Bk… I was nervous… I was/ am scared that I will failed Him again.. fail as in getting results like a C or B… I want His name to be glorified and I wanna be a good testimony to my friends around…. I still dunno what my results will be… but if I really didn’t get what I expected then.. it.. is… ok…..

After SPM.. (band practices)
It’s always fun and enjoyable to have band practices together… singing and playing and exercising our talents… but I was reminded again and again to not take this whole thing as a performance… as a show to human beings… as a time to be proud about how well I can play or maybe as a time to gain praise from others… but instead as a worship pleasing to God… sad to say… all these are always easier said than done… anyways….. you all really did a GREAT GREAT job!:)

“Undang-undang kursus”
I was left alone with strangers in the “ceramah room” all because I went in different cars with my other friends and took the “nombor” too early… ugh… I felt so horrible at first… why must I be left alone while my other friends can be together? Haha… but after thinking back…. It was not that scary at all… maybe this I just the beginning… I’ve to face more of all these things in future:p…

Caroling
:D…really look forward to caroling every year… dunno why… maybe it’s the people that made this whole event more joyous… singing carols… chit chatting… going up and down the bus… laughing… playing tambourine… teasing each other… praying for families… blessing the community…taking pictures… being ah long collecting money(:p) whao… so much more to name out… really had a woderrrffuuulll time…

One Joy One Kluang…
Everything turned upside down on the morning of 24th. In my heart I was praying that the rain would stop… if not now then later… I truly believe that God heard our prayers… and indeed the rain STOPPED:). Praise God!! Dancing with such a “big” crowd in front of me was my first experience…. The AIYAH dancers did a good job!!

CHRISTMAS IS A TIME TO LOVE

After Christmas..
Got the opportunity again to catch up with my school friends… we went bowling and steam bot-ting… glad to see some of them… our hottest topic we chatted about was what our future plans were.. some said engineering.. some nursing.. some teaching.. some mass com(ing)… and much more…

The year is coming to an end… looking back… it was really a tiring… stressful… happy… pretty.. wonderful… amazing 2009.. many sweet memories to be remembered… many experiences that I’ve been challenged… many people that I’ve come across of that I need to be THANKFUL of… many fearsss that I’ve overcome(d).. many scoldingss(parents and teachers) that I’ve faced… many undesirable problems that we(5sc1) had to go through… and… the list goes on… hehe...

Treasures in Jars of Clay

2009-12-22T22:59:00.004+08:00

In a basketball or netball game, attempts to throw the ball into the "basket" are not always successful. oftentimes, the one who attempts to score misses and he ball bounces off the rim. there is no time for the team to moan and wallow in regrets. in split seconds someone else on the team lunges towards the stray ball and makes another attempt. a successful second attempt brings applause but if this try fails too, there will be yet another effort made to score.

our lives are often like these ball games. we aim for success but are sometimes failed in our attempts to be good and righteous. we are sorely tempted to give up but Paul reminds us not to throw up our hands in despair in the face of opposition. believers can find themselves hard-pressed, perplexed, persecuted and struck down but these tests are opportunities to experience the strength of the Lord in their lives.

Paul likens us to clay jars-fragile in the face of the storms of life. but the resilience of believers lies in the power that in theirs because of the death of Jesus on the cross and in the treasure of His abiding presence in their lives. moments of greatest human weakness are also moments when God's power in most gloriously expressed.

hmm.... these article was one of my QT material few months back... i wanted to post it... but didnt have the chance until now:).

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"Dependence on God is not a sign of weakness but is only the way to see more achieved through us than we will ever hope to accomplish on our own"

friendsick??

2009-09-25T23:03:00.005+08:00

me is friendsick..

is me friendsick?...

me is missing those timess we had together yamchaing...

me is missing those timess we had sharing...

me is missing those timess we had talking on the phone...

me is missing those encouragementss you gave me...

me is missing those comfort you gave me...

me is missing those timess we laugh together...

me is missing your presence...

me is missing those m n ms you gave...

me is missing the little little gifts you gave...

me is missing smsing with you...

me is missing the timesss we walked and talked along the student's walkway...

me is missing someone to at least "lean" on...

2009-09-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

adik saya sudah merdeka...:)
tapi...
saya belum....:(

my week

2009-08-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

phew...
today is rest..
today is rest...
FINALLY!!..
i actually looked forward for today.hehe...
books aside...
and rest!!
how nice!!:)
this week..
macam "kempen membaca untuk peperiksaan"
ugh...
rush to finish studying.. trying to read as much as possible..
using the "full capacity" of my brain to memorize "thingsss"
it's CRAZY!!
it's ENDLESS reading!!
it's really impossible to study all la...
impossible to memorize all.. AND
impossible to understand all!
sometimes... i feel discouraged...
because no matter how much i study.. i know..somehow..
i cant reach my expectations..*why expect so much??*
i know somebody will surely be ahead of me..*why compare? i'm still learning not to*
haih...
studying everything doesn't mean you already know everything..
studying everything really doesn't guarantee good and perfect results.
phew...
i really thank God for rest today..
i overslept in the afternoon.:p hehe...
God is really an understanding God rite?
He knew that we cant work 24/7 so He said..
work 6 days and rest 1 day..
:).

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merdeka celebration today at prime city was really good!!
seeing believers coming together to worship God really touch me...
it was just wonderfrrrfuuullll...
i don't know how to explain it with words...
but it just touch my small little heart;).

a statement..

2009-08-15T22:24:00.004+08:00

"when you're having a headache..
Don't count the sheep...
look for the Shepherd."

Hari Kantin

2009-07-11T22:08:00.001+08:00

FINALLY.. it’s over.. not really FINALLY lar.. didn’t want it to end so fast. Haha…

Anyway, the whole idea of setting up a stall came from Jieyi, Weishan they all.*I think* I didn’t even know all about their plans until a few days later. Hehe.. and so.. we started planning… putting them in groups.. and etc.. etc..we became busy.. busier.. and busier as the day approached. Thank God we had sufficient time for all the planning and preparations. it wasn’t very rushing:).though some undesirable things happened that made some upset and disappointed.. haiz.. I guess.. it was just part of the process… it’s all settled:).

It’s really a privilege to be the penyelaras.this is my first time planning for this kind of thing.. no experience.. a lot of decision had to be made.. it was not easy at all dealing with people, communicating with them.. sharing my ideas.. agreeing with what most agreed.. accepting not only my own ideas but also others…tolerating with them.. all this needed PATIENCE!! But.. I somehow enjoyed it.*weird*

Looking back.. I think it’s through “these times” that we get to see how we cooperate, work together and learn together. I learned that we can choose to cooperate or not to. Cooperation is a choice. cooperating with others is a choice.we cant force someone to “work” with us if that person is not willing to help.

I was really "shock" and it really put a smile on my heart when almost everyone were so willing to help out with the food… some sacrificed their time just to make samples for testing.. some sacrificed to buy all the stuff and all… AND not forgetting those who came to carry the tables on Friday though it was drizzling and the time was really ought.

“hand busy leg messy” I didn’t expect to be that busy. Hehe.. really thank God for MISS WONG!! She was really a GREAT help!! Her generosity really amaze me.

To sum up the whole event.. it was overall quite successful!!! This whole experience setting the stall up.. selling together was really FUN!!!

Thanks to…

Zheng Ru(my lovely and helpful assistant) though you were not there.. thanks for taking the trouble to buy the spoons and polystyrene.:)

Yen Li who made the flyers and all. They were nice. Very creative.

Jia wen, sock Ki and Jia Huan. You all were really very helpful. I really appreciated all you HELP!!

Aiting who helped me with the planning though she had her PBSM stall to settle.

Evonne—the high frequency!! Haha… thanks for all the laughter:).

The most important person ever… God who gave me the strength and love though it all!!

Erm.. I got 30 more to go… too many lar… I’ll stop here:).

during sunday service...

2009-07-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

we were about to start with our praise and worship session when "out of no where"(or maybe some wherela) came two NS people. i suddenly became stunned. i said to myself:"HUH??!!0.0 why remind me again about this thing??!! fear.. i lost focus.. i almost cried... i started praying that I'll not be affected by them but to focus on God. thank God my heart tuned back to His. the songs we sang spoke to me..

haiz.. this NS thing... i admit i was/am quite troubled by it. i guess.. God really planned for me to go despite the plans I've already planned after SPM..

letting go.. letting Him take over=). i think that's much easier...

really so grateful to have such a BIG GOD... BIGGER than our problems.

NKLP

2009-06-30T23:01:00.003+08:00

i'll try to be calm..
i'll try to be calm...

PLKN??!!!! did i really get???
though the sms said YES!!!
i'm still hoping for a NO.
haha..
sigh...
i really dun plan to go lah...
but what if God plans for me to go?
hmm...
aiyah...
i'll not think abt it for now.
=I

a thOught

2009-06-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

Why are you so cold?

*this sentence can be read in different ways.

FAMiLY CAMp

2009-06-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

ok.... i actually wanted to post this quite some time ago but.. haha... i wrote it and saved it but didnt post it up. okla... here comes the post.

FAMILY CAMP!!
camp was GREAT though at first i thought it was OKLA only.. i even doubted whether God really touched me when i lifted my hands when u.ven asked whether we were touched by God during camp. indeed i was touched.PRAISE GOD!! as i began to reflect back and "digest" the things i learned i thought it was WUNDEFULLL lah. it was "hard" for me to go at first for this camp, i even set my mind that i couldn't make it ady-because of some reasons.. but i truly thank God that i made it. i WENT!! wohoo.!! looking back, i still cant believe God said a YES to this prayer:D. urm... i learned a lot. i think i got the most out of this camp compared to the precious camps i went. i dunno how to put them into words lar.. but, as i flipped through the camp notes the day after we came back from camp, i could still "hear clearly" the pastor's voice-his message. it was CLEAR. though i did not copy down all the words he said, even with the few pages of notes written, it was already enough for me to learn, learn and learn from it. there's really so so much to learn lar... i'm still missing those times we had together during camp. i thought this camp was a very different one. maybe be mainly because we didnt have "outsiders". hehe... we knew everybody and everybody knew us. waiting for the next one? yip.yip;).oh ya.. i forgot to mention something.. i was roomates with the "yings". haha.. felt so alien at first coz i'm the only "ho" inside while they were the "cool" people. haha!!! i luaghed so much the first afternoon. funny lar they all.. especially *sze sze*;). anyway.. it was really nice to have them as roomates.

PRE..CI...OUS!!!

2009-06-07T22:45:00.003+08:00

OH!!!! this is really SCARY!!!
I THINK...
i just went to some website.. wanted to find something..
and guess what??!!
the minute the page appeared..
i saw a "table"(dunno what's that called)
they were counting down how many days before PMR, SPM and STPM.
*nerves standing*
they were counting down the hours, minutes and the SECONDS ALSO!!!
HAHA...
TIME is really precious!!!
REALLY PRECIOUS!!!
REALLY REALLY PRECIOUS...

*Lord, the days left are few.. very few.. i look to You for strength and guidance.

WO HUI QU!!!!!

2009-05-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

I CAN GO!!!! I CAN GO!!!!
I REALLY CAN GO!!!
I REALLY REALLY CAN GO!!!!!
WOOOOHHHHOOOOO!!!!
PRAISE GOD!!!!
PRAISE PRAISE GOD!!!!!
;D :D :D

After praying, hoping, seeking, crying, stressful-ing.... it was all WORTH IT LAH!!!

THANK YOU!!!!
FOR ALL THOSE
WHO ASKED...
WHO WAS CONCERN...
WHO ENCOURAGED...
WHO TOOK THE TIME TO LISTEN TO ME
WHO SHARED MY JOY AND PAIN TOGETHER...
WHO PRAYED..
WHO SMSED...
WHO COMFORT...
AND PARENTS-DAD ESPECIALLY WHO ALLOWED ME TO GO
AND THE LAST AND FIRST WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE...
MY HEAVENLY FATHER WHO ANSWERED MY PRAYER;)
I REALLY REALLY APPRECIATED IT=D
REALLY...

planty

2009-05-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

i was studying bio the other day and this thought came to my mind.

"even the leaves, roots and shoots of the plants have their own specific functions."

they sure have their own function la. but i mean, for example... the xylem and phloem. the xylem transports water and dissolved mineral salts absorbed by the roots up the stems and to the leaves. while the phloem transports organic substances from the leaves to roots.

the internal structure of the plant is so tiny lar... cant even see it with our naked eyes. and YET!!! they have their own significant roles to play. i believe God made them. He made the plants. yup!

if phloem is taken out, the whole plant gets disrupted. the tissues above it will swell while the below withers. they need each other to function properly just like how our human body function.

i thought it was amazing!! though it's just a tiny plant or maybe some for big trees it amazes me again how God created those plants so that they can release oxygen and we take in those gases. what else can we say then? we are more... much much more complicated than plants!!

...

2009-05-17T21:42:00.001+08:00

What is courage?
What does it mean to be courageous?
What does it mean to take courage?

HE is d REASON

2009-04-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

into your hand
i commit again
with all I am
for you Lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever


i like this song very much. 
it is one of my favourite song.
i'm not liking it just for the sake of liking itla.
but i think the lyrics of this song are very meaningful.
whenever i'm down, i'm always reminded about this song.
God somehow spoke to me through this song.
sometimes not even knowing,
tears will just roll down from my eyes whenever God touch me using songs like this

*HE IS THE REASON THAT I LIVE.
even on the darkest say, Your light breaks through to show the way;)

d CAMP

2009-04-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

Phew... just came back from prefect's camp. i got sun-burned AGAIN., some blue blacks and a few scratches. och! i wont say it was refreshing but a rather stressful onela. haha... the minute we step our foot on the campsite, we kena-ed marah by a sergeant(i guess, not very sure) for lengah-ing our time putting down our bags and stuff. i was like:"oh no!! ok..ok.. faster put and go baris. since i'm still new to that place. just follow firstla." everyone was like HUH? panicked... then, we had our taklimat and our very first meal-kuey teow.. oh ya, i'm very grateful to have Joy,Chien Wei, Weishan and some others in my group. each of our groups were placed with an instructor to teach and guide us through out our camp. i actually prayed that God will give us a "not so strict" instructor. hehe.. thank God that He did not just give us a good and kind instructor but also a quite good looking one. hahaha(at least, compared with the others, we could see he was more matured looking):P

i got bored after a few hours there. though i was a new experience, i felt as if we went to another world, another side of Kluang which we never knew before. our actions, activities, time and even the "freedom" to bathe were all being limited. i felt as if we were some country being colonized by their strong forces. phew... every action, every work, activity was being controlled by them. must be disciplined, must menepati masa, must berbaris , must.. must.. must... and the list goes on... if you don't follow the "rules" you'll be punished! oh!! thank God that the camp ended=). will NS be like that also?

i was amazed by God's creation that night. just looking up at the clear blue sky with little twinkling stars above, it is just so wonderful lah! WUNDERFFFFUUULLLLL...

through this camp, i realized that the teachers in our schools are really very nice people(somela).
we should appreciate them. i remember during camp, one of the teachers gave us a ceramah. she knew we were all tired and worn out so she showed up some videos to lighten us up after a long stressful day. haha... i really appreciate teachers who understand students well..=)

enCOURAGEments..

2009-04-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

i was thinking the other day...
how will life be if we don't encourage one another or
we don't get any encouragements from others.??

what will our everyday be if we have to go through
those challenges and problems without anyone to encourage us.??

i think life will be a rather lonely and miserable one.
we need courage to face up the task/challenges ahead of us.
sometimes, we need others to assure and encourage and even FAITH to keep us going.
though we can replace those discouragements with FAITH but we cant possibly encourage ourselves when we ourselves are discourage.
God is wonderful. He knew we need courage and encouragements. so He gave some the gift or encouraging others=).
i thank God for family and friends who have encourage me at those times when i needed your encouragements.

*eeee... i wanna talk to you...

carrot? egg?? OR oolong teo???

2009-03-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

A YOUNG woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each over a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil. In the first one, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last, oolong tea. She let the pots sit and boil without saying a word.

About twenty minutes later, she turned off the burners. She fished out the carrots and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she poured the oolong tea into a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see.”

“Carrots, eggs and oolong tea,” the daughter replied.

Her mother beckoned her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she looked at the hard-boiled egg.

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the oolong. The daughter smiled as she tasted the tea’s rich aroma, then asked, “What does it mean, mother?”

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting in the boiling water, its inside hardened.

The oolong tea was unique, however. After the leaves had been in the boiling water, they had changed the colour and taste of the water.

“Which are you?” she asked her daughter. “When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or oolong tea? Think of this: Which am I?

“Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

“Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break-up, financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside, am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

“Or am I like the oolong tea? The tea actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases its fragrance and flavour. If you are like the tea, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity?”

Are you a carrot, an egg or oolong tea?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

the HIdDEn MEANing

2009-03-14T22:45:00.004+08:00

"Learn not only to find what you like, learn to like what you learn."

this was the quote one of the teacher wrote in some of our books.
i dunno whether she wrote in all our books
but at first when i saw this quote on my book i laugh(haha)
haha...
actually i also didnt know why i laughed.
maybe it's because it's one of my weakness.
or
i just found it rather funny.
but as i read it through and through...
i found it was rather true and began to know the true meaning of it
- the purpose teacher wrote it in our books.

*but sometimes i think we need two sides to cooperate too.=)
hmm...

examssss....

2009-03-13T22:30:00.004+08:00

This mucus(or whatever you called it) just cant stop flowing down from my nose. you blow one side and the other side starts to flow. =S so yucks. and after all that, the tissues are all wet and full of germs. haha... today was worst than yesterday. yesterday was better=). oh ya, drinking warm stuff will help to clear nose blocks. great!

it all started with a small cough. then fever. then sore throat- maybe cause i coughed too much? haha.. and now... all four combined together. hmm...

this week was exam and everything turned out to be worst!! but one thing i thank God for is that chemistry paper that was suppose to be on thurs changed to friday because of the SPM results. thank God for that=) because i slept almost the whole day on wed. hehe... everything turned out good and normal though at first the change of the jadual was not really satisfying cause i wanted to finish exams earlier. haha...*God was gracious. thank you Lord=).

ah... now that exams are over.. hehe.... holiday starts tomorrow.=D

Lord thank you for your grace and love. thank you Lord for strengthening me through out exams. Your grace Lord is sufficient for me for Your power is made perfect in my weakness.=)

....

2009-02-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

hmm...
things have not been really right...
one minute up and the other minute down..
inconsistent...
dun even know whether to =), =( or ={
just =) la. hehe...

basically it's some class problem.
i dunno whether the others(classmates) really feel/felt anything.
i felt something.
sometimes very sick of it.
things like before dropping into the same hole again.
not tired meh?
cant put all the blame on others too.
sometimes it's the consequences of irresponsibility or.....
hmm..dun wanna list out la....

i once thought of giving up,
giving others a chance to take up this responsibility.

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there's a brighter side of the week.
i'm really encouraged by some ppl.
just the other day i was doing my QT and the question " what is it that is blocking God's best plan in your life because of unbelief?" pop out.
i was like "huh?!"
i sud have trusted and had a little faith.
anyway, i thank God for speaking to me.
God is still the best ever;).

Lord, help me through every thick and thin,
for You are the one i will rely on.

FoReVa

2009-02-01T22:36:00.001+08:00

Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You
Be with You

it's very comforting to know that we can be with God forever and ever.
Nothing can ever separate us from His love :D.

the HUGE storm!!

2008-12-30T22:05:00.002+08:00

Many things can happen to us in life, like a storm can cause us great fear and panic. At such times we may despair and give up. Perhaps more trying than the external storms are the internal storms that can overwhelm us. It may seem like we are about to lose our moorings and that we are drowning, but Jesus can bring His calm to our souls.

this was what i read during QT today.
Lord, I need you to calm my soul.

2oo8 is coming to an end which means a few things
- 2oo9 approaching(1 more day)
- school's starting
- have to face "more" people(whether difficult or easy)
- have to study
- have to face teachers
AND..
- SPM!! argh!! -the huge storm.

SPM sounds so big=(. FINAL YEAR EXAM(i shall call it):P.

though it's only December,
but i can feel the stress(internal and external) and pressure.
maybe it's bcos i didn't do well in my exams this year.
that feeling is "so not nice".. hehe...

i want to start a new year fresh and ready for new things=)

explode!!

2008-12-18T22:11:00.004+08:00

i didn't really want to post anything about everything.. but since.... so i decided to post something about everything..=)

before ESP..

it was a tough time. it was hard to accept his death. though the doctor already "prepared" us but it was still unpredictable. i remember i just came back from a friend's birthday party that day when my aunt came out from the house panicking. i became panic too. hehe.... it was even more heart breaking to know that i cant make it for prayer concert. it was just a very ugly period. i really thank God for those who have encouraged me, smsed me and came to visit. you all really cheered me up and helped me looked at the brighter side of things;). i thank God for you all very very mucchhh..!!

after ESP..

ya, camp is over. like what everybody said it happened just in a glimpse of an eye. it's over... exciting and happy moments always pass very quickly.

ok, basically.. camp this year was great. it was indeed a different one. Ps. Victor was very creative in planning and putting his message so much so that we would enjoy it. ya, for the very first time we experienced a "wedding ceremony", fake one though:P. haha.. Chris did a great job:). he was funny too with the fake moustache. muahaha... i didn't know so much about the weeding rules. hehe.. it was indeed interesting.

this was not the main reason that made this camp very significant. everybody was on fire. i enjoyed worship sessions. it's very amazing and encouraging to see brothers and sisters in Christ coming together seeking and lifting our praises to Him. it's more comforting to know that we share the same love and worship the same God--- Jesus Christ!!

i was in Wei Ling's group. hehe... she did a great job as a group leader;). at first, i thought that our group members were very "spiritual and matured" ones. hehe.. but i was wrong until i met and got to know Lynn:) during games. she's a nice girl, i think. she "accompanied"(so called) me during games. it was great to know her.

four days flew away so very very fast. i expected a few things but didn't expect what i expected to really happen. haha...

the next day after camp, i received an sms from my friend saying that she shared the gospel with her sis. though she shared before with her sis but her sis didn't really bothered. she's now very curious about God and Christianity. yay! Praise God!! *i don't know whether this is really a break through but i thank God for it=)!!

Lord, i pray that you'll continue to work in her. use me to share Your truth with her. i pray that you'll open her eyes and heart to see the truth and one day accept You. Amen.

+ + +

2008-12-03T22:00:00.004+08:00

i don't know how to put into words..

complicating but sometimes can be simple too..

frustrating but sometimes calm..

thankful for one thing but ungrateful for the other..

2008-11-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

A Christian life resembles a trapeze act.
You can swing on the bar,
exercising and building muscles all you want.
But if you want to improve and excel,
you have to take risk.
You have to let go knowing that nothing is beneath you,
and reach out for the next trapeze bar.
-Paul Tournier-

Bu She De..

2008-11-13T22:11:00.001+08:00

my helpful, patient Penolong:)

class party 2oo8

only part of the class is here. drama

Rui Min;)

The bunch of friends i always hang out with.

Ketua Kebersihan

Our Class--4SC 1

Michell. sweet, smiley girl.

yeah! the THREE of us;)

Phew.. we had our class party yesterday. though some didn't make it but it was a really fun and enjoyable time spending together with friends. today was my last day schooling coz of trip tmr. haih... i felt and still feeling "bu she de".

*pictures are at facebook:).

..

2008-11-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

Only in returning to me
and resting in me will you be saved.
In quietness and confidence is your strength.
Isaiah 30:15

wHiCh oNe?

2008-11-07T22:20:00.006+08:00

Phew!!...轻松多了

It's over.. finished... 19 days of exam.. never had I ever before had such a long stretch of exam.

Torturing lar..

A few things that I was reminded again and again was..

Studies doesn't satisfy. We/I can put A LOT of effort but sometimes I think it's like chasing wind. Somehow, I think no matter how much effort I put in or even if I tried my very best somehow some way, I think I can still put in more effort and my best was still not my very best actually. I dunno la..

Exams are very torturing---- especially when it's extended to three weeks. Argh! The desire to get good results yet in the same time being tortured and forced to study. Not wanting to give up bcos of “kia shu-ness”. Living in the "studying world" for 19 days.. pressured by people. Argh! Not nice..

Exams can sometimes be nice too. Hehe.. I enjoyed this journey walking with the Lord. Whispering to Him every now and then when my brain got stuck and "begging" him to give me 1% of his wisdom so that I can answer those tough questions. Hehe.. it's really comforting to know that God is always beside us, left, right, behind, front, top, bottom.. guiding and providing our needs. I really thank God for his faithfulness. His faithfulness endures forever=).

Without even realising, 2008 is coming to an end. sigh.. Basically, this year was quite a challenging + tough + .... Time passed very slowly during rough patches. Dealing with people is not easy but going through those thick and thin times with them are one of the best times this year. I think through all that we've gone through this year(class problems), we've really got to know each other in a deeper and better. We're not just a "hi" and "bye" friends ady. I thank God for that=). People change. A lot of decisions had to be made especially for the class. Every decision has its consequences and it effects the whole class and what lies ahead.

I love my class very much;).

pictures will be up soon.

*band practice today was FUN!!=)
*should i? or should i not? should i become a perfect? but for certain reasons, i prefer to be a
ketua.. i "cant let go off" my class. how should i answer the discipline teacher?

...

2008-10-31T23:07:00.005+08:00

*distance*

*separate*

*further*

*far*

*not close*

orrrrr...
whatever you call it...

that's what i dun like
during exam..

=D

2008-10-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

i found it!!! F.I.N.A.L.L.Y...

after so many months of searching here and there for it.

ah!!!! delighted!!

i finally found that particular card.

though

small,

unnoticeable,

yet special and

it meant a lot to me!!

Jia yOu!

2008-10-12T22:49:00.005+08:00

*Jamie studying sejarah really hard for PMR*

All the best to those sitting for PMR=).
jia you!!

-----------------------------------------

"Because of the Lord's great love,
we are not consumed,
for His compassion never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

each new day beings with it a fresh opportunity to receive God's Love, Grace, Touch...
which is completely secure regardless of life's circumstances.

we serve a WONDERFUL God;)!

sTilL

2008-09-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

FrieNdsSss

2008-09-25T20:50:00.003+08:00

we did a question on friendship yesterday..
"Pada pendapat anda, mengapakah kita perlu berhati-hati ketika memilih rakan?"

one of the answers was untuk memastikan hubungan sentiasa erat dan menjadi rujukan ketika menghadapi masalah.

talking about friends, friendships, friends and friendship, A FRiEnDsHip needs time to develop but we can destroy a FRiEnDsHip in a minute. how true! it's true that friends play a vital role in our lives. especially after a few deaths that had happened recently, it made me realized that i need to treasure them even more.

Friends. i need them in times when i'm down- my source of comfort and encourgement. but what about when everything is "okok"? do i still remember them? do i still take the initiative to talk to them? am i a person who only look out for them when i need them and forsake them when everything in my life is going smoothly? i dun wanna be this kind of friend and neither do i want them to think that i'm that kind of friend.

lately, i've been thinking about my friendship with my friends. some are not as close anymore like last time, some still maintain, some even closer, some are like a roller coaster, sometimes we get along well but after a while we become "normal" friends. most of my friends come and go, which one will really last? does true friendship last? have i been a good friend to others? where is God in my friendship with others?

when there's expectations, disappointments will come along automatically. i've learnt not to expect too much from them. it's hard but it's easier if i place my trust in Him.

haih..

thoughts.

feelings.

thoughts.

i.. yOu.. wE... tHeY...

2008-09-17T22:14:00.003+08:00

If one can be more considerate about others feelings..
If one can be more sensitive about how others might feel.
If one can be more discipline when doing their work..
If one can be more responsible in the duty assigned to them..
If one can just give others a benefit of doubt..
If one can be more sensitive to the needs of others..

2008-09-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

i hope that this skin works.. hehe...
cant find any suitable skin i like:(

time...

2008-09-12T21:20:00.003+08:00

Did you realized that it's coming to the end of 2008?? a few months to go and it will be 2009...

how can that be..?

As usual, our English teacher will always nag here and there..

"we still got one more short story to go!"

"you only have four more weeks before final year exam!"

"that means we only have 20 more periods!"

"we still haven't finish doing composition, grammar...!!"

i felt so sick of them as she repeated the same old line again and again...

it strike me today when she repeated the same lines again. haha...

it did make me realise that form 4 is coming to an end!! END!! Ah!!! nononono...

what happened to the nine months i've went through?

enjoying huh??

was is fruitful??

Lord, i need to work hard now.!! Lord, i want to bring my friends to know you- the Healer, the Comforter, the Best!!! Give me the boldness and courage Lord...... i dun want to regret....

dRaMa

2008-09-01T21:47:00.003+08:00

we had a drama competition last Thursday.

this is our class drama "group"

though not really successful

but,

they acted very well.

hehe...

good job everybody!

i thank God or them;)!

*the drama video is still with my friend, will try to post it up when i get them..

2008-08-31T13:39:00.001+08:00

i want to make you smile,

because seeing you smiling makes me happy=)!

tro tro & fi fi

2008-08-13T20:59:00.004+08:00

"Sejak kebelakangan ini, our class have been quite crazy about winning the "kebersihan trophy". we "menang" the trophy for quite few times ady but for a period of time, 4 Sc2 telahmerampas" the kebersihan trophy. erm.. the trophy is for kelas cleanliness. the teacher yang bertugas each week will "berkunjung" to all the class es and memberi markah. the class who gets the hightest "markah" will menang the trophy the following week.

mencari After a few months of "ke-tiday layak-kan" untuk menang the trophy,our class started a so called AJK Kebersihan. almost all of our class rakan-rakan started to have the semangat to win back the trophy. just for the sake of winning, the AJKs pun bekerjasama berpeluh tubuh bahan-bahan dan maklumat-maklumat for the soft board in our class. they were so into winning back the trophy, they even change the whole soft board. from black to gold and dull to green. we even put up a "green corner" and reared tortoise(which we ended up torturing them rather than raering them. haha). oh! they even give them names. one is tro tro and the other fi fi. so cute of them lah.

after all those climbing, crawling, falling, rushing.....the exciting part finally came. we had our usual assembly on Monday but this week's one was a little different. my classmates were so confident that we'll menang the trophy. they even pakat with all of us to stand up and cheer is we really menang the trophy. haha... ya, we really won. they were so happy. hehe.. it was all worth it, i thought.=).

the berkejasama-ness just 0.0 me. it was really a pleasure working with my classmates as a team. friends which i didn't really expected them to help out "lend a hand" too. that really put a smile in my heart. truly, through all those hard work, i believe that we've got to know each other a step closer=).

memang wonderful untuk berada di dalam kelas ini. especially with those who have made my life a sweeter and a more meaningful place to live in=). my classmates are just- W.O.D.E.R.F.U.L! i thank God for all of them=D=D!

**i HOPE hoPE hope hope that one day ALL of them will get to know Jesus=)!

UpSiDe doWn

2008-08-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

schools on Monday can sometimes be one which i look forward to and sometimes one which i don't look forward to. the "things" or so called M-E-M-O-R-I-E-S whether good, bad, bitter or sweet that happened on Sundaysss will flash back in my memory every time i walk along the corridor making my way to the dewan in the morning.

school today was like a disaster. haih... everything seem to have gone upside down. but, God is still so nice.. hehe...

"My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness".

what a meaningful and comforting verse to meditate on...=)

cuttie boy...

2008-08-01T22:45:00.001+08:00

He's so cute
=)
;)
=D

tHe eMptY biRd cAge

2008-08-01T18:01:00.003+08:00

there was once a man named George Thomas, a pastor in a small New England Town. one Easter Sunday morning he came to the church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit.

several eyebrows were raised and as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak.

"I was walking through town yesterday when i saw a young boy coming toward me, swinging this bird cage." i stopped that boy and asked, "what you got there son?" "just some old birds," came the reply. "what are you gonna do with them?" i asked.

on the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright.

"take 'em home and have fun with 'em. I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. i' gonna have a real good time."

"but you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. what will you do then?" "oh, i got some cats. they like birds. I'll take 'em to them."

the pastor was silent for a moment. "how much do you want for those birds, son?" "huh?!! why? you don't want them birds, mister. they're just plain old field birds. they don't sing- they ain't even pretty!"

"how much?" the boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"

the pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. he placed it in the boy's hand. in a flash, the boy was gone.

the pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the valley where there was a tree and a grassy spot.

setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and them the pastor began to tell this story.

one day, Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden Of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "yes, sir, i just caught the world full of people down there. set me a trap, used bait i knew they couldn't resist. got 'em all!"

"what are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked. "oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other.

how to hate and abuse each other. how to drink and smoke and curse. how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"and what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked. "oh, I'll kill 'em."

"how much do you want for them?" "oh, you don't want those people. they ain't no good. why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. they'll spit on you, curse you and kill you!! you don't' want those people!!"

"how much?" Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "your life."

Jesus paid the price!!

"and ye shall know the truth; and the truth shall set you free." -John 8:32

"if the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed." - John 8:36

the pastor picked up the cage, opened the door and walked from the pulpit.

bla...

2008-07-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

students passive during class lesson = teacher refuse to teach cause no mood

For those who havent handed up your news letter article, can you please kindly pass it up by monday. which is today.. thanks!=)

Apa INi???

2008-07-25T16:59:00.003+08:00

WhAT HAPPENED????!!!!!
what happen to my my Cboz?? my blog??
everything just came out blank after a few days of absence????
sigh...
hope that this will only be a temporarily template...
*simple and nice*
hehe...

Observation:
When i was reading the bible yesterday... i realized that the book of Acts does not have Chapter 8 verse 37. i was like huh??? is it typing error or??... haha.. so, i checked my mom's bible. it doesnt have either. whereas, other bible version-NJKV has 8:37. after a while of stunness.. i found out verse 37. just right at the bottom. the small small words.. why ah? why is it hidden at the bottom???

M.Y.P.G

2008-07-20T22:56:00.003+08:00

MYPG-Malaysian Youth Prayer Gathering was great! Awesome!=) though that event was half a day long but that half a day lasted very shortly...

helping out selling t-shirts was fun. seeing a continuous flow of people buying t-shirts and badges put a smile in my heart=). hehe... of course.. having lunch together with friends, jumping around with **Xue Qi... was fun too... haha...

above everything.. i was reminded again how wonderful it is to be in the House Of God. though we come from different back grounds, states.... but we're gathered together as one BIG BIG BIG and very BIG- HUge family=D. so nice right that feeling? what a privilege.... hehe... and all we do is just pray, worship, fellowship, laying down everything that is burdening us, setting apart from the busyness of this world.... imagine that heaven will be 100, 1000, 10000, 1000000000 times better, greater, more marvellous than this. we'll be worshipping God, expressing our love and gratitude to Him all day long=). wonderfullah...

that was what i've experienced during MYPG...
ujian serentak starts this tues!!! Lord... help me to trust and not doubt.. i want to grow more more more more in you=).

2008-07-10T16:08:00.000+08:00

Qing Song Duo Le!!
=)

...

2008-07-02T21:45:00.004+08:00

Life without problems is life without challenge
Life without God is life without purpose

i don't like people to be my alarm clock
and i don't wanna be other's alarm clock too.

Save... Save....

2008-06-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name, let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save
But Your Name

Salvation is found in NO ONE else,
for there is no other name under heaven
given to men
by which we must be saved.
Acts 4:12

Only you have the PoWer to SaVe, O Lord..

...

2008-06-01T21:49:00.004+08:00

FaMiLy DaY was great!!=)

i had a wonderful time with family and friends!=)

....

2008-05-31T21:31:00.001+08:00

how to design a reka bentuk to memasak water dengan solar energy?
any ideas??????
hehe....

FAithFulneSS oF GoD

2008-05-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

phew... after two++ weeks of exams.. finally, it's over. God was very faithful through it all and still is now. He made the impossible possible. though is was just a small little help but it sustained and motivated me to move on studying. i learned about discipline. it was not easy especially when thoughts like "i want to end exams!!! and how nice if yesterday was everyday!!" come attacking me every now and then. and i had to get rid of them again and again every time they came. the Lord helped me overcome those thoughts=). looking back.. He provided me with a lot of things.

Your faithfulness never fails...
unfailing love sets me free.....

i like chemistry and physics. not so much of bio. i dunno why. but bio helps me know more about myself and God. God is amazing. our human body though complicated(sometimes dun even know what are they trying to say) but yet God created each of us just as unique as we are without failing. 0.0

chemistry and physics paper 1 today was 60% tough. hehe.. though it was objective questions, but it wasn't as easy as i thought. it's so ugh... every time when i press+press+press on the calculator and the correct answer doesn't come out. hahaa... and sometimes though i got the answer but how sure am i that the answer is correct? .........

i like the place i sit. the very first one at the corner right beside the door..=) now that all is done and over... it's time to rest and.... have fun? haha....

AmAziNg GOD!!!!!!!

2008-05-15T22:16:00.007+08:00

i praise and thank God for....

making the impossible possible.

helping me through all the things that i had to memorize for exam!!=)=)=)=)

giving me ideas to write my essay and answering some tough questions=)!!

YoU!! thank you for being a F>A>I>T>H>F>U>L friend=D! i thank God for you!

answering my prayer. though it was just a simple thing but things would turn out differently if it wasn't Him who answered.

the FREEDOM we can have prayer meetings and Yf and attend church!

revealing things that did not scare me all this while.

bringing me through exams.. i'm still amazed.

AND!!!! one more one more!!!!!!

i ..... i passed. ya, i passed my theory exam!!! yay!!!! *i just checked it just now after being told that it was out ady! i expected the impossible but it's ok... i know it's impossible to get a D. thanks for all your prayers and encouragements.=)

there's so much to thank GOD for each day=)!

Life - LOVe = 0

;)

2008-05-11T19:00:00.001+08:00

the sky was so dark the minute i open my eyes today...
the sun began to shine only a few hours later
but..
that didn't last long...
it's dark again now...
.....

Up-Dates!

2008-05-08T22:15:00.003+08:00

2 down...
16 more papers to face...

this four days just fly/flew away so so fast!
FAST!!
and without even realizing..
it's already the fourth day of the week...
tomorrow will be Friday...
a lil yay! cos i dun have any paper tmr ;).

i thank GOD again for bringing me through this four days..
i'm so amaze by His loVe for you. Me. EveryBodY..
so Wide.. So DEEEEEPp... SO GREATTT....
hehe...

days just pass so fast during exam period...
haih...

****where are you?? high lowr from you:(. left or right.. i dun seem to hear from you:(.

2008-05-03T21:01:00.000+08:00

Global Day of Prayer was GReAt!!
=)

MONDay

2008-04-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

how many times must i say this a day??
it's so frustrating everytime when you say shhhh!!!!!!
and nobody even bothers to take any action.
nevermind...
nevermind...
i'm still learning to be P>A>T>I>E>N>T
=)..

taGGed!!

2008-04-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

I have been tagged by Joan and Chien Wei. The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 5 people and posts their names,then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

What was I doing 10 years ago?
Erm... let me see, i was 6 at that time. hehe..
1. i just moved to Jasin.
2. i attended a Methodist kinder garden.
3. i liked to pinch people.
4. Adapting in the new environment.
5. Play, play and play without worrying abt anything.

5 things on my to-do list today
1. Read God's Word.
2. Do some revision.
3. Was suppose to go for tuition but cancelled.
4. Online(which is now.)
5. Sleep

5 Snacks I enjoy
1. French fries!
2. CHOCOLATE!!!!
3. Burger.
4. certain cakes.
5. brownies with ice-cream

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Build a World class university in Kluang?
2. give a portion back to God.
3. help the needy.
4. go Shopping! and buy lots of stuff...
5. decorate and design my own house..

5 of my bad habits
1. get irritated easily.
2. easily shaken.
3. think too much.
4. anxious.
5. impatience.

5 places I have lived
1. my mothers womb.
2. in my house.
3. Singapore.
4. my father's father's house
5. other countries i've been.

5 jobs I've had
my brain is stuck. i cant think of any..
1. helper at home.
2. be a child
3. student
4. friend
5. erm..

5 people I tag
1. Lee Ying!!!!=D
2. JOy
3. Gideon
4. Yi Hui
5. Ken Wen

by the way, i copied the "text" from somebody's blog and paste it here. lazy ah.... hehe... hope that there's no mistakes.

2008-04-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

some are falling away
yet,
some are restoring back.

..

2008-04-16T22:00:00.001+08:00

i think......
i miss my long hair....
hahah...

...

2008-04-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

will this week be another week like last week?????

2 late 2 realiZeeeeEE??

2008-04-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

i realised...

i'm in form 4 now!!
time flies... it's the fourth month now..
i'm going to be in from 5 next year..*scary*
i'm growing..
i cannot be the same like what i was in form 1

i realised...

everything is getting tougher..
there's very little time left...
there are lots of decision awaiting for me...
i need to trust GOd more...

i realised...

many of my friends are still lost...
i need to treasure the people around me...
the "jing zhen li"("competition") in our class is getting stronger & bigger...
i cant be so sure i can see the end of 2008!
i need more time...

i realised....

i can easily fail a subject if i dun work hard enough...

i realised....

i need to change my perspective of viewing certain things..

FriDay..

2008-04-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

thousand times i've failed,
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

as usual, we had our friday prayer meeting...
but, today was a little different from the other prayer meetings we had all this while...
1. it's because we had it longer
2. some of us shared more...(hehe=))
3. i felt something unusual..
just something very different from the other meetings all this while..
4. i realized that some of us started sharing something different...
something about ourselves...
not like usual..
5. i realized everybody started to become emo.. hehe..
*aiyah... if you cant get me then nevermindlah..
6. i learned that prayer is important. and i cant underestimate the power of prayer..
7. i learned not to do things out of our convenience only..
8. i learned a lot more things... haha

i thank the LORd for today's prayer meeting..

i hope and pray that the members of YCS will continue to grow.

here and there...

2008-03-27T22:02:00.001+08:00

The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed fervently for God to rescue him. For days he scanned the horizon for help, but his situation seemed hopeless. He eventually managed to build a small shelter out of driftwood and leaves to protect him from the wind and rain and to protect the few possessions he had.

Several weeks passed, and one day while he was scavenging for food, he arrived back at the lean-to only to discover it in flames. Ha fell on the sand and sobbed while watching the smoke rise to the sky. The worst had now happened; he had lost what little he had.

Desperate and filled with anger, he shook his fist and screamed toward heaven,” God! How could you do this to me? I have no hope. Why won’t you help me? Now I’ll surely die.” Exhausted, he fell asleep heavy with grief.

Early the next morning, however, he was awakened by the sound of a ship approaching the island. He began waving his arms frantically, and when he saw the ship lower a small boat, he knew it had come to rescue him.

When he was finally safe and aboard the ship, he asked his rescuers, “How in the world did you know I was here?”

“We saw your smoke signal,” they said.

It’s easy to get discouraged when things don’t go our way. We often feel we’re at the end of our rope and without hope. But God has promised never to abandon us.

Can we trust the creator of the universe to solve our problems? When things look the worst, God is often at work behind the scenes. All we need to do is to trust him.

For all the negative things we say to ourselves, God has positive response:

We say, “It’s impossible.”
God says, “All things are possible.”
We say, “I’m too tired.”
God says, “I will give you rest.”
We say, “No one really loves me.”
God says, “I love you.”
We say, “I can’t go on.”
God says, “My grace is sufficient.”
We say, “I can’t figure things out.”
God says, “I will direct your steps.”

EveryThinG alSo diFficuLt!

2008-03-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

Yay!! Exams are over.. hehe.. every paper was tough and difficult. Not like those days in form 3, which we are given A B C D to choose=). But now.. most of the papers come in structure form. On hour for every paper is mot enough. Hehe.. sometimes we have to rush to finish the remaining questions. Blek. We had three subjects a day and had to rush studying.

I dropped Chinese…. So my last paper was add math(I really hope that I will pass this paper. Haha) will I regret not taking Chinese?? Today, as my friends were busy revising their Chinese, I started to think.. hmm.. “will I really regret ah? After SPM, I will definitely not have a Chinese on my spm certificate. In the other hand, Chinese is always a NO NO NO and no to me and if I continue taking it will just be a torture to me. Nevermind!=)

That’s all for now!

lord, help me to trust in you more...=)

2008-03-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

Slow down when LIFE seem fast...

THe Bible

2008-03-15T11:25:00.003+08:00

the shortest chapter in the Bible is Psalm 117.
the longest chapter in the Bible is Psalm 119.
the very center of the Bible is marked with Psalm 118.
there are 594 chapters before Psalm 118.
there are 594 chapters after Psalm 118.
594 + 594 = 1188
the center verse in the Bible is Psalm 118:8
"It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man."
=)

i'm HERE!!

2008-03-14T23:51:00.006+08:00

got LOTS & LOTS & LOTS of homework!!

will try to update something soon. hopefully...

=)

gud nite!

Sleep tight!!

2008-03-07T18:45:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO GO!!

:'(

tired??

2008-03-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

how was prefect's camp?
oklah.. not really satisfying actually..
all the activities carried out didn't follow according to the schedule..
for the very first time..i slept during ceramahsss...hehe..not just mela...
quite a lot of the others too..
the worse thing was.. i got caught by a teacher while sleeping.. phew...
the food there was quite ok..
except that we had to take off our shoes when entering the canteen which i hesitated alot
we were all well fed.. we eat six meals a day..
jungle tracking was fun=).
JOy was in the same group as me..
i am VERY VERY grateful...
heheh.... it's not easy to be in the same group with the people you want;).
the very one thing that i learned through out the camp was not to complain...
the dome was not clean...
we slept on dirty mattresses
and there was no water for bathing...
.....
ai...
this camp to me is a NONONO to me...
hahah...

GoD iS AmAZiNg!

2008-02-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

You may not know me, but I know everything about you
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is .. Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you
Luke 15:11-32

wheRe doEs my hElp cOme FrOm?

2008-02-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

My help comes from the LORD=).
this week--- four days...
a very pack week for me...
stayed back almost everyday in school
(maybe not everyday... 2 out of four days..)
for what?
PeRbarIsan loh...
the other two days will be either because of tuition or...
no transport...
we(JOy, Yin Ying, Qianyi, JOhn, Grace.....)
had our first BK class this week.
yay!!!!
quite interesting but
everything is getting so tough...
we will have our next class next week...
happy? excited?
......
stress ah....
1. theory exam coming... it's on the 10th of march. i'm not prepared...
2. can i make it for yf camp? i want to go!!!!

*the Lord is my refuge and strength...

@nDr:Nna

2008-02-16T13:34:00.003+08:00

Angelica merupakan sejenis tumbuhan berbau harum. hahaha...
i saw this word in the dictionary when i was searching for a word.
=P

2008-02-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

school tomorrow...
BLUEK!

C..... and.... Y

2008-02-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

hehehehe.... so lazy to blog.... so much to say.. yet.. dunno how to express them...

Chinese New year was great.... the only time i will makan makan, minum minum a lot.. will be during this festival... *hope that i wont get fatter... i wont mind a little fatterla.. and CNY will be the time when family members gather round... we talk, laugh, joke and share.. i like this feeling...

anyway.. life is back to square one again.. relatives are back home.. school is starting again.. more challenges coming up again.. oh! i cant do this all by my own.. i need You!!=)

2008-01-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

Oh!! i can't wait for CNY..
dunno why...
i usually dont really loook forward to it...
but this year..
a little odd..
hehe...
cant wait for a break..
gasping for a little fresh air..
phew...