IP(man)

I really thank God that IP(integrated project) is over....

Initially, before it started.. Was doubting my ability to complete it,

afraid that I would fail, afraid that I would not be able to finish in time. Failing would mean I will need to study an extra one year. It's scary... That would mean four years diploma....

Really thank God for bringing me through the whole 2 months.

It was not easy.... Struggled at first to come out with a good concept.

Anyway, looking back, still can't believe I managed to handle a slightly bigger project, slightly bigger than normal assignment. :) not to be proud or show off or anything.... but looking back I can only say, thank you Lord for seeing me through, guiding me, walking with me.... :)

grace

Have been reading this book titled "What's so amazing about GRACE" by Philip Yancey and I have been learning quite a lot from it. Perhaps, it came just in time for various things that are happening in life:).

Sometimes, fighting between showing grace versus throwing anger and frustration over things that happened and can't be changed.

"Don't you just have brains?"

"Can't you just think before you act?"

"You see, the consequences, it's ALL because of you. YA YOU NOT ME!"

Ya, many times, I tend to throw all the blame on others, to dwell in self-pity but many times, this word grace comes in/showed up. The whisper, "Show grace, my dear".

Grace is a very beautiful word. Learning from my Savior, I believe He is the best example of grace shown during His life here on earth. one of the example would be He showed grace to one of the criminals during His crucifixion. Do you think that criminal even deserved God's forgiveness? but Jesus said:"...today you will be with me in paradise."

I need to learn to be more gracious. to show grace. to learn from the One who showed me much grace. to remind myself, in many circumstances, i do not even deserve grace.

也许

也许只是想象中美好

也许只是想象中十全十美

也许是永远达不成的盼望

也许这是主所安排的

:)

:(

Ah! not feeling good. so stressed up with 2 presentations this coming tuesday and miss the comforts of home badly. :(

Oh Lord, help me.

never fail to encourage

recently, am overwhelmed with much encouragement from a few friends. calls, meeting up with friends, a simple chat, came in one after another. i really thank God for them la. i guess, God has placed them in my life at the perfect timing when things like school work, responsibility, priorities... just gets tougher each day.

well, i would say that burdens, worries, problems get so much "lighter" when we have friends beside us to bear our burdens, to go along with us, to hear us, to say a simply encouragement to us. i still remember what was said a few weeks ago in church about how much we need each other in this journey in life. when we run alone, we run fast(get worn out fast too), BUT when we run together, we run far. how true is that.

sorry if i sound like i am absorbing all the encouragement and not encouraging others. i know just like what this verse said,

"Each of you should look not only to your own interests,

but also to the interests of others."

Phil 2:4

i hope to be a better friend to others too:).

can't be trusted

thoughts

feelings

sometimes

too

overwhelming.

how to handle?

trying hard

not to allow them

to control me.

feelings

can't be trusted

one can feel this way now

but after a minute

it changes.

confused,

i need some peace,

only He can provide perfect peace.

productivity

Have not been writing for quite some time already. writing skills turning rusty?

well, it has been a long week. only managed to sleep for a few hours last night. is this how a designer work? i remember my dad used/ still tells me, many a times, staring at the computer screen, touching up our work will never end. it is productivity. whether you are productive in doing your work and producing a certain quality of it in a given time. perhaps i didn't put it in the actual way my dad said it but how true. sometimes, i really need to be productive instead of letting FB/Twitter/ other stuff distract me. i admit that it is sometimes hard not to give in to these distraction especially when it is only a click away. "For a while only la". "won't take up much time la". but what if we add up these little minutes and seconds that we spend peeping into social medias? we can easily say that we spend almost 1-2 hours a day just on them. sometimes, it catch me thinking, what if the bible is one click away. will i click on it? will i be excited to click to see what God wants to say to me? will i? if these peeping into social medias can be replaced with peeping to read God's Word, we can easily say that we have spent almost 1-2 hours a day on the Bible.

just a thought though..

well i was actually intending to write about something else, perhaps i will leave that for another day?

ciaozz..

wrong forecast

here i am... it's been long since i wrote here... I was forecasting a busy week until friday not until my lecturer extended one of my poster design submission to monday. So i will only need to submit one poster design on friday(currently doing 2 poster design for a competition for my assignment).

well, it's june already! JUNE! can you believe it?? month by month, day by day, they past FAST! just 6 more months and this year will be over.

No perfect one

Have been having two modules for year 2, sem 2.1 block 1. studio lighting and Italian languages and culture.

I enjoy Italian quite a lot. haha.. i cant believe it cause i was not looking forward to any Italian classes at first. As for studio lighting, i enjoy it too but it has become tiresome. really.. really tiresome.. Somehow i know roughly the reason of the "tiresome-ness" but i don't wanna push the blame to anybody la..

See, it's like that. For studio lighting, we work in groups of 3. And i tell you:P my patience has never never ever been stretched so far before.. everyday after shooting, i get really tired, weary(ya, you can say that i didn't rely on His strength) and sometimes even frustrated. I find myself having really deep naps after school which i don't really have previously. Thank God that those naps really helped me mentally la.

Sigh. it's never easy working with people.

Despite all that is happening, i thank God for my group la. I believe that He has put me in this group for reasons. One thing i learned was no groups are perfect. they might look nice externally but you don't know what they are facing until you're in that certain group. Sometimes, i just have to let go into His hands and not taking control of what is beyond my control.

One more week. i wanna do it with Your strength. May your Name be glorified!

impossible - im = possible

Sometimes, it takes just a little more faith to see God's hands move in a problem. When we say:" Lord, i've had enough. I'm really tired about this problem already." When our tiredness leads us into total dependence on Him, this is when we will see a little hope and a little intervention that God has done. It just takes a little more faith sometimes to see Him making the impossible POSSIBLE instead of controlling and solving our own problems and ending up not seeing what God can do for us. God doesn't like us controlling our problems and wanting things to be solved in our own way. It's when we stop controlling our problems, placing them into God's hands, that is when we will see God's hands moving.

What Lord, are you teaching me this week? Have i place my total dependence on Him? Am i still holding on to things that i need to let go into His care?